Dear Kay,
Good morning. I love you. I miss you terribly and I am still here like I promised. I hope that you are doing okay, and I hope that today is the day that we can talk and at least reconnect a little bit. I miss your voice.
I’ve been thinking a lot since last night about how beautifully intertwined our lives are. How selfish of me it was to take that for granted even for a moment. Thinking about our friends, our families. The music that we love and share, the experiences that we have together and the freedom that we enjoy traveling.
I think about our traditions, the food and drinks that we love and the road trips we enjoy so much together. Friendsgiving, Christmas, Thanksgiving. It all means so much to me and the common thread throughout all of it is you.
All of this is to say that I feel like I really owe you so much appreciation. You bring such joy and love into my life and the invisible threads of you are weaved throughout my life. You are such a beautiful, pure and genuine person, Kay and you deserve to feel so loved and appreciated.
Most of my days are spent missing you. I am trying so, so hard to remain focused and motivated on being the best person that I can be for me – but also, and perhaps most importantly, for you.
I want to be able to receive you and catch you gently when you do give me a chance to recconnect. I want you to know how loved you will be – transparency, honesty, love, respect, commitment and consistency. And of the utmost importance to me – patience.
I have this vision in my head of us several months down the road, stronger than ever. All of the noise has floated away and it’s just the two of us experiencing our energy together. I close my eyes and see your beautiful eyes, your gorgeous smiles and cheeks and hair and it just motivates me to keep going until you are ready.
It’s you, Kayla. It will always be you.
I love you,
John
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